If you are not a friend, at least do me this favor

If only you would disappear from my life
vanish from my existence

I will never forget your bright smile
your beautiful face

I do not wish you to die
but merely removed from my space

so I may remember you as a friend
for your kindness and your heart

but as I see you, those faint memories fade away
for your fickleness
for your heart
for your unquenchable thirst to the one

Stay with me and remind me everyday as the friend I could not be
not as the failure that I am
but as the friend you did not see

Leave me
so I only know
what you used to be
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If you can't see
that I can be
the friend
you never had

then please,
leave me be
with a little dignity.